Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Shower Curtain Update

I now own a damask shower curtain. It looks exactly like the one I pictured in my head. Thankyou ebay. My sister bought it for me yesterday, so calm down people. The search is over. In a continued mini rant, I actually found my DAMASK shower curtain by searching TOILE shower curtain. ok ok I'm done. This is actually very exciting for me because now I can continue my decorating. The entire idea was based on that shower curtain...without it there was nothing.

In more recent new...about five minutes ago, I added this website in my forum signature from my missbimbo account. Yes I have a missbimbo account. I will write about it soon enough. But that was actually a big step for me. No one I really know knows about this blog. I guess I'm afraid I will inhibit what I say because I won't know who would be reading it. But since I'm basically anonymous, this feels like a safe step.

Also I don't think too many people will become regulars. Although if you are reading this now, I think its super cool and you should leave comments. But yeah it might earn me a few hits and make me feel cool or something.

But yeah that was a big step. I just have a lovey window to all my personal thoughts and feeling hanging open...on the missbimbo site.

wait. maybe i should rethink this.

o well for now.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Double Ds

No, I'm not talking about huge boobs here.

Much more serious.

Drunk Driving

No I'm not preaching here, so you can keep on reading.

I recently found out that an old friend of mine was in a terrible drunk driving accident (see Heavy Things). She was under more that one influence though, not just alcohol, but another one of those Ds. Not smart choices. I think we all know that.

But my heart still goes out to her. Drunk. High. Driving. 120 mph. 5 a.m. interstate onramp. flip. roll. no others involved. no passengers. amost died. made it. lost spleen. rod in arm. bad leg. ICU. still unconscious a week later. no brain damage. Like I said heavy stuff. Her parents apparently blame the party host who says they were all supposed to stay the night and she didn't even know she had left.

Its easy to blame someone. Others who read this and don't know the situation personally will blame the victim. stupid choices. pay the price. And I agree with you. She made bad choices. It was coming.

I guess the thing I hate about it is the fact that so many other people do exactly what she did and think nothing of it. I don't, but I do go to college. People drink and drive all the time. It's normal in most people's eyes. Not mine. I have always been big on no drinking and driving. most people are cool with that, but I have had my share of "seeing people's true colors come out."

But so many people do it, yet this girl had to pay the price. She had to be so injured that it will be years before she is completly recovered. She will be behind in school. This is a major setback. I keep her in my prayers, and I just thank God that even though she was the one that had to pay, that she was strong enough to survive it. The good that comes from this is that at least now, the consequences of driving under the influence of drugs and alcohol is now evident and very real to her friends and others who know her.

It's just a shame that's all. It's just a shame that people have to feel that pain and that fear and that worry before it is serious to them. I wish people could just know how stupid a decision it is before they have to go through all that.

I'm not trying to preach. I just don't like to see people hurt.

And even after she is somewhat recovered, she is going to have to deal with the legal consequences. Drugs and alcohol were involved. Thank God no one else was hurt. I feel so sorry for her and her family. Like I said before, so many people do exactly the same thing she did, and yet they get off scott free. no consequences.

But I am a big believer of God being in control of everything and everything happens for a reason. Maybe this saved her. Maybe this saved a carful of her friends. Maybe it saved her family. I'm not going to act like I know everything, but I do believe God was in control. There was a reason she was driving the car she was. There was a reason she survived. There is a reason this happened.

And I am so thankful that she will be ok.

Damn Damask!

So I have been trying to decide how to decorate my new apartment bathroom all summer long. Really...all summer long. And then, a few days ago, I had an epiphany. I pictured a beautiful black and cream damask shower curtain, hammered silver accesories, and bright colored (coral, yellow, cool blue) towels and accents.

Great idea, right?

And I felt like I had seen the shower curtain from my vision before, yet I couldn't place it. I had recently looked at a pottery barn catalog, but nope, not there. So today I went to virtually every store that carries any sort of bathroom accessory, but nope, no shower curtain.

So I figured, hey! I'm a girl of the twenty-first century. I'll look at all the online stores too. No damask shower curtain. I did find pictures of peoples bathrooms with my shower curtain in it, but they just wanted people to talk about how beautiful it was...not give it to me.

What makes this situation even more irritating is that freaking damask is everywhere now. I think it is the new trendy print or something. I found it on plates and wall hangings and notebooks and pillows and vases and picture frames and comforters and window curtains, but on shower curtains? Nope. Okay I'll admit I did find some, but not in the style I wanted. It was brown and pink, or teal and brown or gigantic damask with white flowers on top. But you know that because I want it so bad now, I will search my little heart out, finally find it, be super happy, and then for like a year run into exactly what I wanted all year long in every store I go to, but it will of course be cheaper and prettier than what I originally bought. I had this happen to me before with ballet flat shoes. Yeah...there everywhere now. I know. Thanks for reminding me.

I guess that's the price I pay for being a step ahead of the fashion world.






But anyway my online searches lead me to the conclusion that people have no idea about the name of fabric patterns. This surprised me, but not as much as when i found out that my now ex-boyfriend didn't know what a doiley was (no, that is not the reason he is an ex boyfriend). After that I actually found out that a lot of people have no idea what a doiley is. In case you don't know, a doiley is a little lacey thing that is usually either circular or rectangular that sits on tables or under glass. Typically you would find them in a little old lady's house, or just a southern decorated home. People who know what they are usually are like, "Yeah, there all over my grandparents house." Not a big deal if you don't know about them, but I am always surprised when I find out that people are unaware of things that I consider common knowledge.

Like I was reading one of those "you know if you're from pensacola if..." things online and one of the things was "you never give a screaming roadside preacher a second glance." After I read that, I asked my college roomate if crazy preachers stand on the side of the road in the heat of the day in suits screaming bible verses at passing cars with either a bible or "fire and damnation" sign in their hand. She said uhhh...No. I was awed. I had taken knowlege of that for granted. So now every time I see them, I feel special knowing that most americans will never get to witness the absurdity of them.

However, one time I was on the losing end of this common knowledge thing. I was in a restaurant and someone asked for a ramekin of honey mustard. I was all "what in the heck is a ramekin?" In case you don't know, it is the little cup that the waiter usually brings sauces out to you in. Who would have thought, huh? But then I realized that so many people know what ramekins are. Basically everyone who has ever worked in a restaurant knows this tidbit of trivia. I felt so left out of the loop. But, don't fret. I have found that most people who have never worked in a restaurant have no idea what a ramekin is. I have also found that this story is a wonderful conversation starter in restaurants.

But back to people not knowing the names of patterns. I will admit that I did not know what damask was until a few days ago. I got the picture of the shower curtain in my head, and then I described it to my sister as pretty victorian wallpaper, but not toile. She said I think that is called Damask. So I had heard of damask, but never actually seen it with that pattern next to it, so I googled it and, VOILA! I knew what damask was. But then I thought it would be a cinch to find my shower curtain. Just google "damask shower curtain." Easy, huh? Nope. It turns out eve the people selling freaking damask don't know what it is called. Some poor ebay seller even advertised it as toile. In my head I thought, "No honey, toile is the fabric with little people and goats all over it." Pretty but not what I want.

But this scenario just made me realize how comparatively literate I am in the pattern world. I realize now how many times I've had to describe names of patterns to people.

  • gingham = dorothy's dress
  • houndstooth = black and white alabama hats/usually classic, but way overly trendy right now
  • boucle' = actually really hard to describe, but knitted looking
  • toile = victorian looking with people and goats
  • damask = victorian wallpaper, but not toile
  • paisley = ying yang halfs/on bandanas
  • seersucker = again hard to describe if you have never seen it...thin, sometimes stripey, textured
  • eyelet = lacey looking stuff/usually on the edge of fabric

I honestly thought everyone knew what gingham was, but apparently my roomate (who then again wasn't the brightest crayon in the box) referred to gingham as checked. But she also referen to plaid as checked. I then told her that no, in gingham the little squares are different shades. kind of like a mix between plaid and checked...like a picnic blanket. Checks are usually just squares of different colors side by side - no look of overlapping like in gingham. This however was way above her head. She then told me that she didn't realize that picnic blankets looked any different that regular blankets. I was just like ok, technically you CAN have a picnic on any regular blanket, but in my mind I always picture a picnic blanket as a red and white gingham pattern (which I assume most people do). She had never heard of this. And yes, I did say she was my COLLEGE roomate.But anyway, I know that everytime someone had a picnic in any cartoon I watched or picture book I read as a child, the blanket was alway red gingham. And of course ants carried off all the food on their backs.

Such a dimwit.

Then again, I don't know. Maybe I wrongly assume that she is stupid when really no one noticed the picnic blankets in cartoons. I'm sorry, I don't mean to offend anyone who didn't happen to know this info. Comment me, prove me wrong.

Your intelligence however, will not make my ex roomate any less DUMB though.

Monday, July 14, 2008

A Good Day

today was a good day

yeah

the best total day in a while.

pray for a friend of mine though.

pedis are the best. pedis with a friends are better than the best.

good talks and a lot of love.

i want a boy.

not necessarily a boyfriend.

just a prospect or two.

i have no prospects.

i want some prospects.

yeah.

some prospects.

thats all

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Heavy Things

Today was a really, really good day. But it ended on a note that just made me feel heavy.

I'm really sad, and shocked, and concerned, and worried.

A friend told me something. It probably wouldn't be a big deal for most people, but for both of us it is. And it's done. It was kind of told by someone else who probably thought I knew. But I didn't. I'm not mad or upset that she didn't tell me. I understand. I've been in a similar situation before. I have told people some things, but left out details. It's hard to tell people things we are ashamed of. I guess what makes me sad is that she thought I would think less of her. I hate that I led my friend to think that I would look down on her for making a mistake when I am a whole lot less than perfect myself. I guess I told my old roommate things that I haven't told my friendand I guess that is because my roommate had a lower sense of morality than I did, so my deep dark secrets were nothing to her. I guess I felt that my better friend would think less of me. I was just ashamed.

She was kind of forced to tell me even though I didn't really catch on to what was said. She told me she guess she should explain. I told her she didn't have to. But she did. I really don't think less of her, but I wish it hadn't happened because I don't want her to feel the way that she does now. I don't want her to not be able to tell me anything. I don't know. Maybe we will talk about everything later. Just a lot of heavy stuff. My heart just feels so heavy for her. I pray that God leads me to be the best friend I can be for her and helps me give her whatever she needs from me.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

So I'm bored

Yeah this is the third one of these I've written today, but I'm bored, and this is still new to me and more interesting than Bring It On 2 which is on tv right now.

Stupid movie, but Bethany Joy Galleoti is actually in it as the...I don't really know...she wants to be like the head cheerleader, so I guess she's like the sidekick. I'm not watching it, but I heard her voice and was like "Haley James Scott!" I just wrote the One Tree Hill Post a little earlier, and then she pops up on my tv screen.

The weather is so horrible. Do you know how depressing it is to look at a ten day weather forecast and see that it is supposed to thunderstorm everyday? I do live in Florida though. Rainstorms are usually sporadic (that means every once in a while according to Cher Horowitz from Clueless). So I have tentative plans to beach it tomorrow with the bestie.

I don't trust weather people. I find most to be very inaccurate. Like I said, I live in Florida. I guess after seeing about 1000 incorrectly predicted hurricane tracks over the years, I have lost faith.

I hate bad weather.

My mom never lets me go anywhere when it rains. She thinks I drive a covered wagon or something. I mean she won't even let me run to a fastfood restaurant. I understand it to some point because I don't really like driving much to begin with, but still.

Gosh I'm bored. And I can't stand fickle boys either.

He calls me. He says he's in town. He says we should do something this weekend. He says he will call me. He never calls.

Make up your damn mind. Honestly I don't care if we do anything this weekend, but don't call me and act like you want to and then leave it hanging. Seriously! I don't care if you had never called me in the first place, just don't say you are going to call and then not, because that makes you a jackass.

I'm too nice. I should tell him to not be a jackass.

But I won't.

Monday is my frand's birthday. The big two-oh. She will no longer be a teenager anymore. I will follow a few months after. We shall celebrate.

So I keep thinking of future post topics. This one could be considered a waste, but I don't feel like being focused. Or grammatically correct. Get over it, but know I do possess the skillzzz. I was actually copy editor for my high school news paper. We had very very bad writers. I basically wrote the paper. I feel that I have done my service to society. I have been subjected to such abhorent writing that my reward is to be able to forget commas and misplace modifiers with a free pass for the rest of my life.

Back to my future topics. Here's a list:
  • My former college roomate
  • lame cheerleading in movies
  • my itunes
  • books
  • movies
  • grammar
  • stupid boys
  • miss bimbo
  • feminists
  • alabama fashion
  • the fact that disney channel and nick are crap now
  • knock offs

Feel the anticipation.

I'm sure there will be more.

Gosh I'm hungry. I could really go for the buffalo chicken pizza from CiCi's. The only problem is that I need a small child to take with me there as an excuse. Adults don't generally go to CiCi's without a small child. Then again I don't particularly consider myself an adult.

One Tree Hill

So you want to know a little something about me? I am a huge fan of One Tree Hill. My lovely college roommate (hmm...I think she needs her own post) introduced me to it. Anyway... now I'm an avid fan. I own the first three seasons on dvd, and I have been watching them while waiting for September 1 for the season 6 premiere. I also introduced one of my sisters to the show. I sent her home with season 1, and she called me the other day and told me that she had stayed up until 3 o'clock in the morning finishing it. I guess you could now say she is hooked too.

But I cannot wait...I repeat, I CANNOT wait for the next season.

After the freaking crazy finale, I went to the CW website and read the reactions of all the insane fans. I know personally I screamed when the final scene of Lucas in the airport went black. Those OTH people really know how to piss me off. Of course the one scene that they played over and over and over on the stinking previews is the last scene of the finale, and you have to wait months to find out who Lucas called. Don't get me wrong. I love OTH, but this last season has just about driven me crazy. First they have all these flashbacks. I understand they had to explain the four years they skipped, but if more than half of the show is flashbacks, or memories, or daydreams, then that means that nothing is actually HAPPENING on the show.

And as for the daydreams...yeah those made me want to punch people in the face. Straight up give someone a bloody nose. I know OTH has done that a little bit before, or just made you think one thing, and then later made it all make sense, but showing freaking DAYDREAMS in the freaking PREVIEWS is pure evil. Yeah, basically I mean showing a short clip of a married couple walking out of a church before the Lucas-Lindsay wedding episode. Yeah...not them. It was actually Peyton and Lucas getting married in Peyton's daydream. Then of course they also twisted the clip of Peyton bringing Lucas home from the bar. I waited the whole freaking show anticipating them "gettin it on" only to realize that was a clip of Peyton struggling with drunk Lucas...and then my hopes were dashed even more when Lucas straight up told Peyton he hated her. Poor Peyton. She has been through so much.

But yeah...I guess the OTH people know what they are doing. I keep coming back for more. I still think they could use a good punch in the face every now and then though.

So now I will discuss my thoughts regarding the season finale. Watch this if you want to know what I'm talking about.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qoXNWO20shw

The Phone Call
a) Everyone was waiting for a phone call. It could be any of the three girls.

b) I honestly think the whole Lucas-Brooke thing is over. However they were becoming better friends again. And I was just watching old season 2 episodes, and they got back together after their first breakup right after they started being friends again. But still, I feel very certain that Brooke's call was about the baby.

c)I want it to be Peyton. I think there is a fair chance that it is her.

d) Manface Lindsay. I do not like her. I do not want it to be her. But I think there is a fair chance that Lucas called her too. Stupid Lindsay just had to go and leave him that stupid voicemail message. I read people saying that she isn't returning for the next season, but that doesn't mean that he didn't call her and she turned him down. Personally I don't see how that one stupid voicemail would make him want to marry her again. I mean she left him at the altar, didn't trust him when he said he was over Peyton, lied to him about seeing someone else, and basically made him into the biggest, mopiest pile of crap ever. But still if he did call Lindsay, and she said "no," then he and Peyton would be right back at square one. We would have to wait a whole other season to even get back to the possibility of a relationship. I don't think I can handle that.

e) From the pilot episode it has been obvious that the major story has been about Lucas and Peyton. Their timing was just never right. That story has continued all the way into the last season. Also small details from the beginning that weren't really important are being brought back, like the model of Peyton's car, so even if he didn't call Peyton, I feel like the show is setting it up for their story to come to a close with them being together.

I just want them to have a happy ending

f)As for their phone answering faces...

Brooke: she looks concerned...probably the baby, but I guess she could be wondering why Lucas would call her late at night

Peyton: she uses her more proper phone answering voice...the kind like when you talk to someone you don't know (the stranger Mia met)... not good news for me but I guess she might answer the phone like that with Lucas since they are on weird terms.

Lindsay: of course she had that stupid far off dreamy look...just like she would have if Lucas called her back after she sent the text message. And yeah, I definitely don't see her having that look as she answers a call from a publisher. Unless it was a long lost lover calling her and that's why she doesn't return. But, I'm just wishful thinking.

So I don't like the conclusion that the phone answering faces have lead me to.



Dan's Accident
Crazy. Personally I don't think he died. Like I said I watched some earlier episodes and in one right after his heart attack, Lucas tells him something along the lines of " I know you'll never die because then you won't be able to control everyone, and we both know that's not gonna happen."

But anyway I am so glad that he didn't kill the man with the heart he needed. I was actually starting to root for Dan to be good for Jamie's sake. I mean He almost strangled Nanny Carrie to death... and hey! I have to give kudos to anyone who does that.


Hurry up September 1